Friday, June 29, 2007
i stutter too much.. way too much..i hate it..i just blew it.shet. i just lost my chance to go to china =xthis made me cry:dats ok. if its 4 u, dey will ask you 2 go 2 china. love u.
kkrriiss posted at 12:58 PM
Thursday, June 21, 2007
argh
school officially started. i hate it. i just wish i would sleep and eat the entire day.
thesis.. labor.. thesis.. labor..
i'm missing this/him..
*sigh* i'm too lazy to blog.. haha!! =D
kkrriiss posted at 11:25 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
i was going to stuffs this afternoon. i came across notebooks i kept.
i read it, kinilig, umiyak, ngumiti, at kung anu-ano pa yung naramdaman ko. ang cute pala. minahal pala kita ng sobra. a huge smile unconciously painted on the canvas of my sad face. kakatuwa. everything seemed perfect, and yah.. i could recall that i did feel perfect.. perfect, contented, and happy. i just don't know what happened.
bakit ba naging ganito..? bakit ba bigla lang tayo nagkasawaan sa isa't isa..? kung tutuusin, mahal kita ng sobra.. at alam ko mas mahal mo pa ako. i just told my friends the other day waht really happened.. why insistingly wanted to leave you.. how we got back together again for the last time.. then you left and hurt me big time.
i pretended to be ok.. yes, i was and i am ok. not until now, its just that everything sinks in right now. whats this? post-breakup syndrome..?
bakit ba naging ganito..? bakit ba bigla lang tayo nagkasawaan sa isa't isa..? kung tutuusin, mahal kita ng sobra.. at alam ko mas mahal mo pa ako.
bakit nga ba?
i found this txt message i sent to you way back when we were starting off-- "i want you to be happy, even if it means i'm not the one who's making you happy.. after all, there's more to life than me.."
shet. that hit me really hard.
we never really had the chance to clean things up. dirty fights. no clear sorry, no forgiveness, no clear story of what really happened and what we both really feel.. we didnt talk.. and we didnt even care to be friends..
"don't keep me hanging.. not knowing whats gonna happen" well, i dont know if you are, but i am.
it sucks your missing in my life.. i want you back, even it means we're just friends..
i'll end this entry with something i found in one of my notebooks: "i'll be a true angel [someday], i'll have wings and halo and dress in white thingys"
am i still your angel?
kkrriiss posted at 10:34 PM
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
First Week of June
*the ultimate gmik with cess, kuks, ej, lala, rhonna, bruce, nadz, jack, edel, jv, mac
*bonding with my dud
*stuffs over coffee
*and reliving highschool
this is my best summer so far! i'm loving it..! muah.. =)
my dud.. we're both drunk.
a really really crazy bunch
stuffs over coffee - girl talk
missing highschool.. =)
kkrriiss posted at 5:40 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
The Culprit.i'm currently taking medications for hormonal imbalance. as i was cleaning my face, it suddenly hit me. hormonal imblance is the result of physical and emotioal stress.
"emotional stress", i repeatedly said in my mind. indeed the past months hasn't been good for me. not good in the sense that my grandmother pass away and i had a lot of issues to deal with. i guessed it bothered me a lot. and yes, my pimples did break out during and after all of these.
i just want to post a comparison of my pictures.
BEFORE
NOW
i guess i wasnt able to deal with this properly causing imbalance in my system, irregular periods, and improper releasing of hormones.. *viola* my pimple outbreak. people have seen me to be sooooo jolly lately. maybe its sort of a body's defense mechanism to fight off the misery thats in me. yah, the thought that my lola is gone still bothers me until now. i still cry.
so it gets this bad if i'm depress. yikes.
kkrriiss posted at 10:24 PM
SURVEYi got this from friendster.
Thirty-nine secrets about yourself [be honest.]
1- what is your natural hair color? ** black.
2- where was your default picture taken? ** neverland? hehe my room.. hehe i edited it..
3- what's your M.I? ** "F"
4- who did you last hold hands with? ** ahhhmm.. *smiles*
5- does your crush like you back? ** dami ehh qng crush.. i know one who does.. hehe
6- what is your current mood? ** busog.. mood ba un? masaya.. hehe
7- what color underwear are you wearing?! ** black
8- what makes you happy? ** family, friends, photoshop!
9- what do you think is the next rumor about you? ** that i'm a sl*t! shet./ afjafja you!
10- if you could go back in time and do something, what would you do? ** ahhmm.. made a move *winks*
11- if you must be an animal for one day, what would you be? ** any animal/insect that flies.. hehe asteg un!
12- ever had a near death experience? **yep.. my mom felt asleep while driving.. yikes
13- something you do a lot? ** eat. sleep. and eat and sleep.
14- what's the name of the song stuck in your head right now? ** save me from myself - christina a.
15- who did you copy and paste this from? ** i dont know her, hehee
16- name someone with the same birthday as you? ** lee ann, angie, precious, maam veron.. =)
17- when was the last time you cried? ** two days ago.. it around dusk.. hehe
18- have you ever sung in front of a large audience? ** karaoke.. hahaha eewww
19- if you could have one super power what would it be? ** be invisible wahahaha.. so that i could sneak up at people! hehe
20- what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? ** eyes or smile.. feet if their wearing flip flops.. =)
21- what do you order at starbucks? ** frap.. and only frap..
22- what's your biggest secret? ** that i have a big secret! hahha
23- favorite color(s)? ** black, red, green..
24- when was the last time you lied? ** yesterday? white lie =)
25- do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows? ** shows? no.. just movies, animations..
26- what are you eating or drinking at the moment? ** i just finished.. cheezy fries and coke..
27- do you speak any other language? ** spanish? hahha.. asa!
28- what's your favorite smell? ** his.. =)
29- if you could describe your life in one word what would it be? ** unpredictable
30- when was the last time you gave/received a hug? ** this morning
31- have you ever been kissed in the rain? ** yes.. *remembers*
32- what are you thinking about right now? ** that i wanna pee!
33- what should you be doing? ** just surf the net.. hehe and pee!
34- what was the last thing that made you upset/angry? ** last night, my rent.. hehehe.. ok na ngayon..
35- how often do you pray? ** ...
36- do you like working in the yard? ** dpends..
37- if you could have any last name in the world, what would you want? ** williams or beckham [pharell williams or david beckham] hehhe
38- do you act differently around your crush? ** yah.. i act goofy! yuck
39- name one song that reminds you of an ex? ** waahh.. you mean my official x right? f--ck u right back.. joke.. iris.. hehe
THE QUESTIONS ARE NOT EVEN ABOUT MY SECRETS!!! labo..
kkrriiss posted at 4:32 PM
