kris' shitty thoughts, dreams and wishes...

Friday, July 28, 2006

i watched the break up with jai, ange, bea and fatz. i laughed at some of the scenes in the film, more of because i could see myself being a immature and pathetic girlfriend and friend. its just that there are always two sides in a story. its when you're mad that you do crazy stuffs just for that sweet revenge you think you deserve and always been wanting. on the other hand, the person affected does the same thing to you. so you end up in this rough tug-of-war in which everybody tries to be the winner.

e diba ang sad? wala lang. i saw myself and my life in many of the scenes in the film. not just in my arguements with my friends, ex-boyfriends, but practically with everybody. i have this overly nodoubt attitude of being so proud of myself.. in simplier terms, ang taas ng pride ko.

i usually dont say sorry
its always the other person's fault
they dont understand, and
you can't accept me for who i am

just those reasons and nothing else. period. selfish noh? wala lang. but honestly, i've been trying to work it out. its only the masayahin attitude of the pipz here in manila that tamed me a bit. at least i'm trying not to be a bitch, i don't backstab anymore, i'm trying to be careful with what i'm saying, i rarely insult people, i listen.. its so hard to lower down one's pride especially when for more than half of your life you're not the one who's giving in, who's always right and is never wrong.. but i'm trying. i swear i'm trying. i've lost and ruined a lot of relationships with people just because i don't listen. stupid? wala lang. shit.. i'm just sorry for everything thats all.

shut up kris.
be good.
ciao..

all i have in this life of sin is me and ~~my boyfriend~~ the pail

kkrriiss posted at 1:15 PM