kris' shitty thoughts, dreams and wishes...

Thursday, September 14, 2006

its stalking me

i heard the song "Iris" by goo goo dolls 3 times today.
is that a shitty sign?

i've always loved the song. i remember liking it coz my brother likes it. lame reason nga eh. by time i eventually learned to love the song for what it really meant. loving the song also means falling inlove with the movie "city of angels". kahit na meg died sa last part [bummer] but its just one of those cheesy love flicks that i still cry with no matter how many times i watched it.

I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it.

just a deep thought, its weird why love only feels good during the first part of the relationship. as what i realized, "love is not a emotion. its more of a commitment.." if you can't commit, then whats the point, right? i had a couple of "legal and illegal", "secret and overpublicized" relationships and i can't seem to commit. as in to stick to what i say. maybe thats one of the reasons why i don't want to be in a relationship for the mean time. [sorry guys, hahaha].. i'm actually enjoying my life being single and free. at least no one tells me who i should be with, what i should wear and what i should do. at least its now ok to do every wrong thing i did in a relationship before.. i hate being dictated. i guess the word is "freedom". free to do anything and free from the guilt for the wrong things you did. i'm in the "having fun with any one stage.."; no commitments, everything so casual. no strings attached. if feels good though. it feels good to be legally single.. ahahaha.. toink.. read between the lines. at least i'm not hurting anybody now even with them not knowing. haha.. just the shitty me.

i still love Iris for the same old reason. its no longer a song dedicted to someone. its no longer just a soundtrack of a movie. but i love it mainly because i still get skin bumps everytime i hear it. no joke.. =)

kadiri nga pala ung version ni ronan keating.. yuck.

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nakakapagod talaga. super hectic ng junior life. it took me a while to realize its Sept 14 na pala ngayon. thats how fast time flies by. homesick na talaga ako ngayon. i dont know why. i really really really wanna go home. ngayon lang talaga nagkaroon ng 'need' to go home. i dont understand. kagulo ko. hehe ciao..

kkrriiss posted at 11:45 AM