when will i ever learn to be numb and blind of all the things that depresses me? its just that when ever i gather up the strenght to go on with my life alone, something is pulling me back.

always pulling me back.

i have my family to show me all the love, friends there for me and even some shitty guys to play with. but there's really something that depresses me until now. i really cannot point out what it is or who it is for any matter.

whats weird was that just when i was numb enough to go on, i just keep on looking back at what had happened. most of the time it keeps me awake at night and shitty thoughts just run through my mind.

is it really my fault? fuck this.

90% of one's life depends on how you handle it. if someone throws oranges at you, make orange juice out of it.

ok..

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1..

smile kris.. =)

anyone wants orange for dinner? i'd rather eat the oranges than drink it..!